How to figure out what you want to do with your life?

Oh little mirror! Please tell me. What do I want to be? A bright shining light. Okay, so what does that mean? Have you ever been in a situation where you have literally no idea about what you want to be in your life? I mean, you spend years thinking over it. While all the people around you were hanging out carelessly and never gave it a thought, you were sitting with a book in your hand and having serious conversations with your inner self. You pondered over a number of options and felt like finally, you had discovered what you wanted to be. The story tale was going perfectly until one day, you just lose everything. You lose your mind. You just become as clueless as you had never imagined being. Finding out what you love becomes a fruit that is hanging on a true planted on a cloud. Bad metaphor! But yeah! It literally gets out of your reach.

Just when you thought you knew it all and you would never have to have those serious conversations with your inner self, you found yourself face to face with a person you never knew. Come on! You are startled by the person who came out of you. You never knew someone like that dwelled in your own body since years. A confused, clueless and depressed energy booms out of you and casts a thick black spell on your life. While everyone thinks you have all sorted out, you’re the one who wonders if you have been covered with a mask or something like that. I mean, how is it possible? You’re a different person and other people see an extremely different person in you. 

You’re so low in confidence and other people find you inspiring because of your confidence. You have no idea what you want to do with your life and other people try to quote your example while talking about ‘doing what you love’. Your financial, personal and social life is all messed up and somehow no one but you notices that. How can it be? How can life be so cruel?

What to do in such a situation? Talk to someone? But to whom? Who would be divine enough to understand what you’re going through? Who would be able to listen to the confusing you? And above all, whom do you think you can look up to for advice when you yourself don’t know what kind of advice you’re looking for? Confusing.

But I guess this goes on with every person. If it doesn’t, that would mean that that person never give much thought about living life in real. Been there, done that. I have been a person who was living an awesome cum all sorted out life for years. I was a great planner but it turned out that destiny is the master planner and you can’t beat it. My advice? For myself? Or for anyone going through a situation like this? Give yourself time. Stop questioning what you’re doing. Just keep doing whatever new you’re coming across and one day that viola moment would come when you would actually figure out what you want to do with your life.

But how would you recognize that that was the viola moment? When it comes, that would be the thing which you would prefer to do to anything else. That would be the life you would want. That would be the thing you would do anything for. That would be everything for you.